These jeans were my go-to jeans back when I was 36lbs heavier..and they were already tight enough for me at the time. Muffin top for days. I slipped em on cos I needed jeans and figured they wouldn’t be too bad and that i’d just wear a belt. Now they feel like loose sweatpants. It really made me think to myself “I can’t believe you were that big."
This is the only before/after shot I could provide after the 4.5 months of working on my health, just because I didn’t know how far I could go with the weight loss.
I’ve been wanting to put up a health post for some time now.
I’d be lying if I said I worked on my weight for myself - because I didn’t. At first, it wasn’t to prove myself but to prove others. But boy, was I wrong to have that mindset. Sure, you need to get a piece of motivation somewhere and proving people wrong was it.
Now that I’ve reached my goal weight, I’m proud to say that I’m doing it solely for myself now. I have personal goals to better myself. To be the healthiest I can be and I feel on top of the world. I’m not doing it for the "you-look-good compliments.” Yeah, it’s nice to hear. As long as “look good” means you look healthy. I can’t believe how incredible great it feels to have this healthy lifestyle. Sure, I miss the junk food time to time, but in the long run, that temptation is temporary and health and cleanliness is basically forever.
I never thought I’d be able to run a mile. I couldn’t even run/jog for 30 seconds. I would tell myself to rest rest rest. Wthell was I thinking. Now, I’ve experienced running 10 miles and it feels great. Never would I have thought I could pull that shit out. I used to HATE running and now - I love it. I love the raw freedom from my own pair of legs. They weren’t lying when they said it takes your mind off of everything. I feel pretty much unstoppable. I hope to run in so many different locations. I want to run in San Francisco (I only did a 5k for a Kaiser organization). I want to run in different cities. Possibly more in Sacramento if I could find more routes.
People would think it was just a phase, but ha..it’s a lifestyle now. It’s a part of something that I can prove myself wrong in so many ways. Mentally of course. I had such a weak mindset before. Health, fitness – it’s all mental. It’s all doable. All you have to do is get up and do it.
It’s the only kind of pain you will never ever regret. You just keep gaining and gaining.
I just want to be my own person. I don’t want to be someone that was only known to be attached to someone else when that isn’t the case at all. Things happen and then things just end. When people ask me why..all I can say it just did and for some reason it’s not a good enough reason. And why the hell is it not?!
I’ve made my decision a long time ago. I just don’t want to be around people that aren’t humble for what they have. Is that part selfish of me to ask? I choose who I want to be surrounded with. I choose how I want to live my life. I just don’t want to be judged for it. People just don’t get the whole story. They just SWEARRRRR they know the whole story. Is it my fault that I wouldn’t talk about it? No. If you ask, then i’ll tell. It’s not that hard. I’ve done my fair share of keeping in my feelings and opinions. I bottle it up. I’ll admit it. Can I fix that? I have my days.
It is certainly that time to
get up,
move,
and do something for yourself for a change. YOU. Noone else. Just you.
Not trying to impress others but seriously for yourself. Just take a step back maybe and observe in YOUR perspective.
I realize there are people that can do relationships & people that can’t do them.
Meaning that the ones that can DO relationships, know what they want when they’re in one and know what the fck they’re getting into. As for the people that CAN’T do them, are the ones that just plainly complain about their sig. other and their habits all the g'damn time. WTF. SHUT UP!
dude, if you suck at being in a relationship, and say “this is so much more work compared to being single” why the fck are you in one?! You should’ve known that from the beginning. I just don’t understand.
SHUT THE FCK UPPPPPPP already.
Getting drunk off a mojito while eating freshly baked brownies on a saturday night..while reading Jenna Marbles twitter - hence, laughing by myself. why?
COS I FCKING CAN, g'damnit.
